離開台北的求學生涯後...
回來重拾老本行...
轉眼間...竟然又過了兩年多...
有種熟悉的喜悅與堅持
也有相當的遺憾與迷惘



有時會懷念起實習的那段歲月...
雖然300份個案報告寫到想吐...
卻充滿戰鬥力...
國小..國中...醫院...各大學院工作坊...
去參與不同職場的成長歷程...
去享受助人工作的成就經驗...
去讚嘆生命無限的潛能生機...
在每個失落的生命中找尋機會...
用諸般智慧...傳揚基督的救恩...
為一個靈魂的得救...雀躍不已!

而今...我在迷惘中...尋找象牙塔裡可生活的方式...
期待拋開別人認定的優秀...忠於基督裡的自我定位...
我深知道...主明白我的恐懼與不安..
好多的無力感漸漸侵蝕著異象使命..
我的人生..不想...被環境同化打敗....
繼續找尋突破方式...失敗了請縮短我的挫折..
可以有勇氣再重新出發...
有祢同行...一定有路可走...
給我...祢的智慧與勇氣...挑戰困境..更新自我。

waking up each morning without your presence
though sun shining thru I see raining
hearing the birds singing I feel like crying
no words can express what I want to say
Everyday I pretend nothing loose in my strength
somehow down of my road I feel this emptiness

*Lord I need you to lead my life
Lord I need you when there's tears in my eyes
Lord I need you to lift up my days
with your words, your love and strength
and to the end of the day
that I know you’re the one I’ll praise

walking alone in the light of your glory
I felt in my soul of your healing
breath in your love take me deeper in your peace
Oh Lord, make me whole and set me free
as I crave for the answers to all of my questions
I lay down my pride and give you all that I am