G pride

every time.. well most of the time when i have time, he doesnt...

its so annoying that i wanna talk to him so bad.. just i dont wanna tbind him up.. u know.. to make him feel like.. he is being controlled.. no freedom.. like the bird in the cage..


its not right to do in a relationship.. i miss him alot..

today.. ex talked to me.. i was really surprised

i still feel really bad.. if it wasnt me... he could be stil that cute happy penguin...but i heard.. he lost weight.. which is something he always .. and dreams of.. so i am happy for him.. ok back to where i was trying to say..


why he always has something to do. when i need him... he is a very sweet guy.. i like him..


well. i mean.. i dont blame him. becuz.. his friend... is in a very deep sadness now..i understand the feeling for losing the most important person in the world.. just..........i need him too....................sigh.............................


i was a little pissed when he told me .. he needs to be with his friends.. i dont know.. i mean.i cant just tell him that.. i need to him to stay with me online the entire day.. i am....really getting tired of falling in love.. cuz i always expecting someone to do someone in the way i am expecting them to do.. i know its not right..just...i guess i am just a human being.. no psychic power to let other ppl know how i really feel...

he always tries to encourage and inspire me.. he is really trying hard to make our relationship to work out..

well just a little complain..sunday is like the only day we can. chat whenever we feel like.. i dont want it to be taken away by no watever reason..i am being selfish at this point.. i know that...........

after i moved back to taiwan.. i become so weak.. i mean.. in terms of.. mentally..

i dont know how to be happy... dont know the way to make myself to be happy..to be more optimisstic..(forgot how to spell it..)


dats wat my ex used to tell me.... its funny that even though i have a good bf now.. i still cant be satisified...

i gotta change but...........i dunno.. i am.........just gettin tired of everything. i am not sure wat i am really looking for........... maybe the forgiveness from my ex and my father..

nothing juicy..... met a guy... thought everything should be perfect.. .. but.. i guess.. i dont deserve someone to treat me nice.. i am disappointed.. actually.. yes.. deeply disappointed.. i dunno wat else i can do about it..


after my ex got a bf.. i thought i could.. i thought i can start a brand new life.... when he got a bf.. i felt released..afterall.. i am the one who couldnt carry on this relationship...


i thought everything should be perfect.. should be the exactly the same i was planning for..


i guess i will stay in single for a while then..