死亡是必经的一个过程。每个人在一出世后，就正慢慢迈向它。一切只在于时间，地点和方式；它何时会降临？而又会在舍麽地方以舍麽样的形势来临？年龄也不是它的阻碍。所有的一切也只不过是数目字。无奈的，生命虽短暂但只要能活出精彩，活得充实，幸福和快乐就已经足够了，不是吗？

已经病了好久了,该有几个星期了吧? 似乎觉得快要死掉的感觉, . 当然我只是普通感冒而已不是舍么绝症, 只是有时候真的好辛苦因为是咳嗽. 希望能快点好起来因为不想再花钱看医生. 

为何我还是狠不下心做出任何决定? 
为何我是如此弱懦无力? 
明知道已经无法再忍受还要继续坚持和纠缠下去. 难道真的注定无法逃离你的影子? 
只能感觉心痛和无奈, 难过与悲哀... 爱上他可能本来就是个错...

已经好久没在这发表日记了。最近心情有些许的凌乱和不安,不知道为何如此，。我一直不停的反复思考着自己曾经所做过的一些决定与选择是否是对或错。我是在后悔吗？ 还是胡思乱想? 真拿自己没办法。 嗨! 做人真的好烦和没意思! 如果有一天能就此这样死去，那何尝不是件好事？ 但是，我不能这么自私因为如果就此结束自己的生命， 必定会伤了家人的心因为无论发生什么事，他们都无时无刻在我身边陪着我, 挺我以及帮助和包容我。虽然心里依旧是很希望能拥些别人所拥有的东西或机会去做想做的事和实现一些梦想，但是，我觉得我还是幸福的。做人本来就该开心和积极的面对人生因为幸福不是必然的，生命也是短暂的所以要好好珍惜和努力。我也该加倍努力和更认真的面对我的人生，梦想虽然不一定会实现但至少我会花时间和努力去争取，就算真的不能得到自己想要的，至少我也不会那么失望和难过吧？无奈的我是这么想。希望大家也一起努力吧!

my frequently updated blog (mainly in English) >> http://cococrunch.livejournal.com 
这是我另一个比较常更新的英语网记.  

我的LJ恢复正常了,希望不会再"出事".可是我还是会回到这来因为挺喜欢天空的.

 
my favourite Häagen-Dazs Macadamia Nut ice-cream!!! XD

 
was craving for Meiji Fran Sticks - Strawberry flavour but apparently, they were out of stock,  i guess the strawberry ones are really popular since they must have tasted good enough to be sold out? there were a lot of the other flavours left on the shelves. in the end, after considering for a while, i "made do with" this "Pie Snow" (milk) flavour instead cos it looks nice to me too (i haven't tried it yet so not sure if its really nice though, LOL~). & how can i miss the Meiji Almond Chocolates which are my usual favourite...

 
popped by Kino. as well since was in the same area & spotted this cute Charmy Kitty notebook. it caught my attention almost immediately and the kitty seems to be beckoning me to buy it so yeah, i bought it,  planning to use it either for work or maybe other purposes when i've thought of it. got another pen as well as "Cawaii" magazine (Taiwan version) May issue since its cheaper than the rest of the magazines that i wanted.

managed to access my LJ this morning after trying real hard but not through the normal way... meaning i can't go in by just typing the URL but need to use an alternative to go in. i shld be happy but i'm not cos i don't like this way of accessing as it simpy slows down everything. WTF!  im very, very upset abt. it till i'm seriously considering giving up on my lj and moving on to another platform. however, i'm still praying hard for a miracle to happen: the revival of my lj though i doubt the chances would be high, sigh... X_X really sucks big time. i still prefer LJ over all the others cos im already used to it, or maybe i shld just access it the long way & endure the slowness?

这是我第一次在这blog因为不知为何一直不能access我的livejournal... 已经有两三天都是如此.心情非常不好, X_X. 也不晓得是否永远都不能再进去了呢? 如果真是这样的话, 我想我多少也一定会有点难过因为毕竟那有我大部分的回忆和经历还有几位LJ的朋友.这里还没任何的朋友因为才刚sign up和用不久.

换个角度来看,或许这也是在告诉我是时候放下过去和积极面对现在与将来的生活吧.只能跟自己说别想这么多(和看开点). 我会尽量常有华文来发表日记但可能会用比较多英文吧. 希望也可以再用LJ因为真的很舍不得那里. 我可是用了好多时间来edit的哟.